Actually, you know that you will eventually give up this kind of tough route.
You know that everything, and every fair will become bubbles, disappearing in the air.
But you still cannot make up your mind to leave.
It's quite a hard decision to give all the relationship up.
But maybe one day you should do it because that from the beginning to the end, there're only you thinking in this way.
They are just kind to you, not meaning anything.
How I wish that you have the same mind as me?
How I wish that you have the same thoughts and the same affection as me?
From my observation, you don't know anything, and you don't know my really feeling.
So?
I don't know.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Being the substitute Contact Person
Actually, my job of being a contact person was originally arranged in August, which is from SOCPE. However, because that I will become the local officer of SCORE in CGU, and that my senior (or my schoolmate in senior high XD), Joseph, cannot take care of the exchanger due to participation in medical camp, he asked me if I can cover him during this period. I have promised him to replace him in the middle ten days of July, for that I have medical camp in the beginning and Lokah-da in the end. Nevertheless, last Friday, Hebe, the SCORE partner of Joseph, asked me if I can pick the exchanger and his girlfriend up in Taoyuan International Airport on Sunday. To myself, I would like to find someone to go with me if I should pick foreigners up alone. Considering this thoughts, I cannot let Hebe go alone, so I finally decided to go with her even though I haven’t already clean up my room in dormitory and check out! These tasks should be finished at least before ten o’clock on Sunday night, or I may be punished.
To save time, my dear Dad volunteered to drive me to the airport, and he’s also willing to drive us back to our campus. Checked out on the website, the plane will arrive at 11:45 in the morning. Just on the road to airport, I received Hebe’s phone. She has already arrived, finding that the plane has delayed about one hour…So we rushed to my dorm, wanting to take advantage of this time packing my belongings. After we rushed to the airport, I found on the electronic board showing the plane has arrived at 12:58. But it’s already one-half! How come Hebe hasn’t recognize them?! She’s quite nervous that she even went to the information desk to ask. Finally, a tall man with brown hair and beautiful blue eyes recognize our poster, with one name”Christopher” on it. (As a matter of fact, it takes me two days to remember his name, and now I’m still not sure whether the spelling is correct or not…) Both of them are quite tall that the male is taller than me by about one and half head, and the female is by about one head… On the way back to school, I found that Hebe masters English so well that I’m a little bit embarrassed to speak English in front of her and the English native speakers. Arriving school, we first went to the hotel to check in, then I rushed back to my room. There was a time limit that I should finished cleaning before ten o’clock. With of the help of my father, I eventually did it at around 5 o’clock. Due to my fear of taking care of them alone, I asked Kimo, or Ryan, and Dickson, or Medicine (XD) to go with me. We went to the neighborhood of Chang Gung Hospital to have a meal. Now we were six people, so we deemed it as welcome party, bringing them to taste the teppanyaki (鐵板燒). However, it’s really a challenge to introduce this kind of food and cook to westerns because that we didn’t know the English of it. We just said that it is a way of cooking which is fried on an iron plain. Finally, they knew what was teppanyaki in the restaurant. I found that Christopher was a left-handed person! Another finding is that I heard from Sallad (I don’t know how to spell it…) that Finnish eat rice, but they use fork to eat it! How interesting it is! After meal, we introduced ourselves to each other during I’m eating ice cream.XDD Now I finally remember their name, and figured out that Christopher is going to the fourth grade as well as Sallad going to the second grade. Sallad majors in dentistry, and she is just going with Christopher for travel. Both of them like Thai food, so they will stay in Taiwan for about three weeks, and then transferring to Thailand to have a one-week trip. Sounds great! How I wish I can have a trip with my friends, not restrict to girlfriend XD Maybe there will be a chance in the future, after we have saved enough money and grow up(?!).
We went to buy some articles for daily use, and go back, ended today’s schedule with full stomach:)
Today, because that there are some problems about the official document. So they cannot settle into their room in dormitory yet, and I have to recheck in the hotel for them. I went to the lab, where the teaching assistant is quite humorous, to find Christopher and explain to him that he cannot move in today. I feel so sorry about it, but he is quite friendly and nice that he thanks me a lot!
It’s a good experience to take care of an exchanger friendly like him, I cannot wait to take him to nice places and introduce Taipei for him:) I hope that I can have a lot of extra time of medical camp, and bring him to have fun, making good friends with them. Then next time when I’m going to Finland, I can require him to be my guide. XD Hahaha~
To save time, my dear Dad volunteered to drive me to the airport, and he’s also willing to drive us back to our campus. Checked out on the website, the plane will arrive at 11:45 in the morning. Just on the road to airport, I received Hebe’s phone. She has already arrived, finding that the plane has delayed about one hour…So we rushed to my dorm, wanting to take advantage of this time packing my belongings. After we rushed to the airport, I found on the electronic board showing the plane has arrived at 12:58. But it’s already one-half! How come Hebe hasn’t recognize them?! She’s quite nervous that she even went to the information desk to ask. Finally, a tall man with brown hair and beautiful blue eyes recognize our poster, with one name”Christopher” on it. (As a matter of fact, it takes me two days to remember his name, and now I’m still not sure whether the spelling is correct or not…) Both of them are quite tall that the male is taller than me by about one and half head, and the female is by about one head… On the way back to school, I found that Hebe masters English so well that I’m a little bit embarrassed to speak English in front of her and the English native speakers. Arriving school, we first went to the hotel to check in, then I rushed back to my room. There was a time limit that I should finished cleaning before ten o’clock. With of the help of my father, I eventually did it at around 5 o’clock. Due to my fear of taking care of them alone, I asked Kimo, or Ryan, and Dickson, or Medicine (XD) to go with me. We went to the neighborhood of Chang Gung Hospital to have a meal. Now we were six people, so we deemed it as welcome party, bringing them to taste the teppanyaki (鐵板燒). However, it’s really a challenge to introduce this kind of food and cook to westerns because that we didn’t know the English of it. We just said that it is a way of cooking which is fried on an iron plain. Finally, they knew what was teppanyaki in the restaurant. I found that Christopher was a left-handed person! Another finding is that I heard from Sallad (I don’t know how to spell it…) that Finnish eat rice, but they use fork to eat it! How interesting it is! After meal, we introduced ourselves to each other during I’m eating ice cream.XDD Now I finally remember their name, and figured out that Christopher is going to the fourth grade as well as Sallad going to the second grade. Sallad majors in dentistry, and she is just going with Christopher for travel. Both of them like Thai food, so they will stay in Taiwan for about three weeks, and then transferring to Thailand to have a one-week trip. Sounds great! How I wish I can have a trip with my friends, not restrict to girlfriend XD Maybe there will be a chance in the future, after we have saved enough money and grow up(?!).
We went to buy some articles for daily use, and go back, ended today’s schedule with full stomach:)
Today, because that there are some problems about the official document. So they cannot settle into their room in dormitory yet, and I have to recheck in the hotel for them. I went to the lab, where the teaching assistant is quite humorous, to find Christopher and explain to him that he cannot move in today. I feel so sorry about it, but he is quite friendly and nice that he thanks me a lot!
It’s a good experience to take care of an exchanger friendly like him, I cannot wait to take him to nice places and introduce Taipei for him:) I hope that I can have a lot of extra time of medical camp, and bring him to have fun, making good friends with them. Then next time when I’m going to Finland, I can require him to be my guide. XD Hahaha~
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Busy summer
I have such a busy, or even full summer this year. Though we’ve just finished the last final exam, I can hardly find few days to go home, and will be back to CGU tomorrow. In addition to moving all my odds and ends to the now, temporary dorm, I have to pick up an exchange student, maybe with his girlfriend, in Taiwan Taoyuan International Airport. He is the exchanger of SCORE from Finland. This case isn’t mine in fact, but I help my senior to do it. That’s the first time I being the contact person from picking up, and I will have my original exchangers from Germany with Kimo and Kevin in August. I’m looking forward to it, maybe it’s the only chance for me to have a trip with my dear friends :P
Besides being contact person, I have joined the medical camp of CGU from 4th to 9th, July, and the fore-camp from 28th, June to 3rd, July, which accounts for my first two weeks of summer vacation. Taking a rest about ten days, and I will join Lokah-da, which is a team to visit the families in mountains. These activities will fill all my July life. When it comes to August, I have to hold the welcome party of M104 juniors in Northern, Middle and Southern Taiwan as well as take care of the exchangers. Moreover, there will be two meetings about S.C.G.M.D, one for the constant meeting and one for the countrywide forum which will be held in my school in the third weekend of next semester. Before these appointment, I have to finish the files that will be sent to M104, and a white paper of being the Minister of Secretary. The last week of summer vacation is the time when the Tennis club has the summer training…How come can I survive this summer……
Notwithstanding my having so many activities than before, I will surely have a full, or even overwhelmed summer vacation. I hope that I can create a lot of memories during this freshman to sophomore summer:)
Oh I forgot! I want to visit Kaohsiung or Taichung if I can!! I can arrange the time of welcome party and plan a Western Taiwan trip in the middle of August! That will be a great idea! Come on! That’s plan it!
Besides being contact person, I have joined the medical camp of CGU from 4th to 9th, July, and the fore-camp from 28th, June to 3rd, July, which accounts for my first two weeks of summer vacation. Taking a rest about ten days, and I will join Lokah-da, which is a team to visit the families in mountains. These activities will fill all my July life. When it comes to August, I have to hold the welcome party of M104 juniors in Northern, Middle and Southern Taiwan as well as take care of the exchangers. Moreover, there will be two meetings about S.C.G.M.D, one for the constant meeting and one for the countrywide forum which will be held in my school in the third weekend of next semester. Before these appointment, I have to finish the files that will be sent to M104, and a white paper of being the Minister of Secretary. The last week of summer vacation is the time when the Tennis club has the summer training…How come can I survive this summer……
Notwithstanding my having so many activities than before, I will surely have a full, or even overwhelmed summer vacation. I hope that I can create a lot of memories during this freshman to sophomore summer:)
Oh I forgot! I want to visit Kaohsiung or Taichung if I can!! I can arrange the time of welcome party and plan a Western Taiwan trip in the middle of August! That will be a great idea! Come on! That’s plan it!
[Mood] Why not me
At the end, I’m the one who’s still out of the game.
I'm not in your group, still.
No matter how I wish, I can't, and that's the reality.
Start thinking giving up, will you?
So sad.
There’s a sense of lost.
I'm not in your group, still.
No matter how I wish, I can't, and that's the reality.
Start thinking giving up, will you?
So sad.
There’s a sense of lost.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
The last stage of this semester
Summer vacation is coming soon; however before endless happiness and joyment comes, we should first face the last stage of this semester...piles of final examinations! I have just finished and passed the first part of Biology experiment exams, the filling into blanks test. The hardest part of this exam is that you should fill all parts of tissues' name of frog, mouse, shark, and pig's heart...IN ENGLISH! It takes me so much time to memorize them due to my poor ability to memorize. Though I scarcely passed this part, the most difficult one lies on next Wednesday, which we should write the name of what we see in the test. It's so sad for my unable to recognize even one of the fern or herbs...It seems that I should make all my efforts on it in the rest of this week...HOWEVER, I should spend my time on Nobel prize, which would be tested next Tuesday...I may have to arrange my time well or I cannot have enough sleeping...
Two weeks later, we will have a full week with exams from Monday to Thursday. Those tests are the most heavy subjects this semester. I hope that I can conquer them:)
Cheer up!! Summer vacation is waiting for me!
Two weeks later, we will have a full week with exams from Monday to Thursday. Those tests are the most heavy subjects this semester. I hope that I can conquer them:)
Cheer up!! Summer vacation is waiting for me!
Monday, June 9, 2008
[Mood] Thank you, but sorry
I should thank you for your thinking highly of me.
Though I'm not fortunate enough to accept your kindness, it would be one of the most unforgettable event, or most regretful event in my college life.
I cannot blame on anyone, all of the results are caused by me.
However, after a weekend of repeated thinking, asking, and hesitating, I finally come up with a conclusion.
I cannot but make up my mind to refuse that distinct opportunity.
Thank you, but sorry.
I'm so sorry for it that even till now I still feel sorrowful.
Wish that I have made the right decision.
Thank you, but sorry.
Believe what you choose, and believe your feeling:)
Make it fantastic, and make it innovative.
That's the only way to compensate for it, for them, and most important, for you.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
[Mood] Dilemma with sorts of sorrow
Now I feel quite suffering, because that I'm stuck in a dilemma.
There're two opportunities for me to grasp, however due to the time limit, I can only get one of them, and give one up. That let me so sorrowful. I don't want to let go both of them, but I cannot even dawn on my true thinking.
I betray your trust and your respect, I'm too sorry to compensate for it.
May be it is just my selfishness that makes me don't want to leave.
I don't want to give up, but do I really like it?
I don't know. I don't now the most basic thing, whether I like it or not.
After discussing with Tim, I think that I've found my way.
Now I realize that the proverb is indeed true in practice, "You can't have your cake and eat it too."
You win some; you lose some. That is life.
Though Now I know what I want, I still feel reluctant to give up...
There're two opportunities for me to grasp, however due to the time limit, I can only get one of them, and give one up. That let me so sorrowful. I don't want to let go both of them, but I cannot even dawn on my true thinking.
I betray your trust and your respect, I'm too sorry to compensate for it.
May be it is just my selfishness that makes me don't want to leave.
I don't want to give up, but do I really like it?
I don't know. I don't now the most basic thing, whether I like it or not.
After discussing with Tim, I think that I've found my way.
Now I realize that the proverb is indeed true in practice, "You can't have your cake and eat it too."
You win some; you lose some. That is life.
Though Now I know what I want, I still feel reluctant to give up...
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